God is good all the time.
And all the time, God is good.
It is impossible to curse God for the pain and praise him for the gift at the same time.
So I am choosing to praise.
I am thankful.
I am thankful for this quiet moment at home, where, in this moment, I am at peace.
I am thankful for every single moment I had with my precious Tanner.
I am thankful that I was chosen to be his mom.
I am thankful for the light he lit in my heart.
I am thankful he taught me how to laugh.
I am thankful for the family, friends and strangers who have shown me such unending love in the middle of my darkest hour.
I am thankful for the HiCaliber team who have carried the rescue through this time.
I am thankful for my faith, for Christ who died for me and Tanner, as I can not imagine the pain of losing child where hope and Heaven do not exist.
After a night at the Irvine Spectrum and tears that flowed with every glance and memory of him, I am thankful that I can see him in everything.
I am thankful that, even in the midst of unfathomable grief, God is giving me the ability to see Him and the way He is working through this loss.
I am thankful to be loved by a good and beautiful God who is carrying me through this very difficult hour.
