Here we go again…
Heading out on a family “vacation” while missing a huge piece of my heart.
I’m happy for Travis to see his sister and for us all to spend time with our extended San Fran family, but finding joy without my baby is proving to be increasingly difficult.
I don’t know how to “family” without my baby.
My heart is perpetually shattered.
There’s not a thing I don’t miss about my Tanner: his smile, his eyes, his glasses, the twinkle when he smiled, his silly gestures, “Rock on!”, precious voice, constant dancing, charming strangers, flirting with waitresses, arm snuggles, nose flicks, love of rice and noodles, capes, pockets full of Hot Wheels, singing and most of all — the way he loved me without restraint.
I love you, Tanner.
Be with us, please. I need you. I miss you. 
