No, my baby…
I haven’t forgotten. I didn’t lose track. I didn’t hide from the memory.
Five months, today.
It feels like yesterday that I held your hand.
It feels like a lifetime since I’ve kissed your precious nose.
Only an Angel’s mom can understand how a blink and an eternity can exist in the very same moment.
Surely I’m not there yet, but I promise you I am trying to find my way to a place where my life will not be marked by loss, but by the love I have for you, the joy that I live in as your mom, the gift I have in the friends and family who have walked this dark path alongside me, and the hope in our Father that will someday let me dance with you again.
I will get there. One foot in front of the other. One breath and then another.
My angel in Heaven, my baby, my son, my love, my heart, my T-man, my Tanner…. mom-mom loves you so very much.
And oh, my child, I miss you so.
Heaven can’t come soon enough.
